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GREAT EXPECTATIONS [1867 Edition] by Charles Dickens Prepared and Published by: Ebd E-BooksDirectory.com Chapter I My father's family name being Pirrip, and my Christian name Philip, my infant tongue could make of both names nothing longer or more explicit than Pip So, I called myself Pip, and came to be called Pip I give Pirrip as my father's family name, on the authority of his tombstone and my sister,—Mrs Joe Gargery, who married the blacksmith As I never saw my father or my mother, and never saw any likeness of either of them (for their days were long before the days of photographs), my first fancies regarding what they were like were unreasonably derived from their tombstones The shape of the letters on my father's, gave me an odd idea that he was a square, stout, dark man, with curly black hair From the character and turn of the inscription, "Also Georgiana Wife of the Above," I drew a childish conclusion that my mother was freckled and sickly To five little stone lozenges, each about a foot and a half long, which were arranged in a neat row beside their grave, and were sacred to the memory of five little brothers of mine,—who gave up trying to get a living, exceedingly early in that universal struggle,—I am indebted for a belief I religiously entertained that they had all been born on their backs with their hands in their trousers-pockets, and had never taken them out in this state of existence Ours was the marsh country, down by the river, within, as the river wound, twenty miles of the sea My first most vivid and broad impression of the identity of things seems to me to have been gained on a memorable raw afternoon towards evening At such a time I found out for certain that this bleak place overgrown with nettles was the churchyard; and that Philip Pirrip, late of this parish, and also Georgiana wife of the above, were dead and buried; and that Alexander, Bartholomew, Abraham, Tobias, and Roger, infant children of the aforesaid, were also dead and buried; and that the dark flat wilderness beyond the churchyard, intersected with dikes and mounds and gates, with scattered cattle feeding on it, was the marshes; and that the low leaden line beyond was the river; and that the distant savage lair from which the wind was rushing was the sea; and that the small bundle of shivers growing afraid of it all and beginning to cry, was Pip "Hold your noise!" cried a terrible voice, as a man started up from among the graves at the side of the church porch "Keep still, you little devil, or I'll cut your throat!" A fearful man, all in coarse gray, with a great iron on his leg A man with no hat, and with broken shoes, and with an old rag tied round his head A man who had been soaked in water, and smothered in mud, and lamed by stones, and cut by flints, and stung by nettles, and torn by briars; who limped, and shivered, and glared, and growled; and whose teeth chattered in his head as he seized me by the chin "Oh! Don't cut my throat, sir," I pleaded in terror "Pray don't it, sir." "Tell us your name!" said the man "Quick!" "Pip, sir." "Once more," said the man, staring at me "Give it mouth!" "Pip Pip, sir." "Show us where you live," said the man "Pint out the place!" I pointed to where our village lay, on the flat in-shore among the alder-trees and pollards, a mile or more from the church The man, after looking at me for a moment, turned me upside down, and emptied my pockets There was nothing in them but a piece of bread When the church came to itself,—for he was so sudden and strong that he made it go head over heels before me, and I saw the steeple under my feet,—when the church came to itself, I say, I was seated on a high tombstone, trembling while he ate the bread ravenously "You young dog," said the man, licking his lips, "what fat cheeks you ha' got." I believe they were fat, though I was at that time undersized for my years, and not strong "Darn me if I couldn't eat em," said the man, with a threatening shake of his head, "and if I han't half a mind to't!" I earnestly expressed my hope that he wouldn't, and held tighter to the tombstone on which he had put me; partly, to keep myself upon it; partly, to keep myself from crying "Now lookee here!" said the man "Where's your mother?" "There, sir!" said I He started, made a short run, and stopped and looked over his shoulder "There, sir!" I timidly explained "Also Georgiana That's my mother." "Oh!" said he, coming back "And is that your father alonger your mother?" "Yes, sir," said I; "him too; late of this parish." "Ha!" he muttered then, considering "Who d'ye live with,—supposin' you're kindly let to live, which I han't made up my mind about?" "My sister, sir,—Mrs Joe Gargery,—wife of Joe Gargery, the blacksmith, sir." "Blacksmith, eh?" said he And looked down at his leg After darkly looking at his leg and me several times, he came closer to my tombstone, took me by both arms, and tilted me back as far as he could hold me; so that his eyes looked most powerfully down into mine, and mine looked most helplessly up into his "Now lookee here," he said, "the question being whether you're to be let to live You know what a file is?" "Yes, sir." "And you know what wittles is?" "Yes, sir." After each question he tilted me over a little more, so as to give me a greater sense of helplessness and danger "You get me a file." He tilted me again "And you get me wittles." He tilted me again "You bring 'em both to me." He tilted me again "Or I'll have your heart and liver out." He tilted me again I was dreadfully frightened, and so giddy that I clung to him with both hands, and said, "If you would kindly please to let me keep upright, sir, perhaps I shouldn't be sick, and perhaps I could attend more." He gave me a most tremendous dip and roll, so that the church jumped over its own weathercock Then, he held me by the arms, in an upright position on the top of the stone, and went on in these fearful terms:— "You bring me, to-morrow morning early, that file and them wittles You bring the lot to me, at that old Battery over yonder You it, and you never dare to say a word or dare to make a sign concerning your having seen such a person as me, or any person sumever, and you shall be let to live You fail, or you go from my words in any partickler, no matter how small it is, and your heart and your liver shall be tore out, roasted, and ate Now, I ain't alone, as you may think I am There's a young man hid with me, in comparison with which young man I am a Angel That young man hears the words I speak That young man has a secret way pecooliar to himself, of getting at a boy, and at his heart, and at his liver It is in wain for a boy to attempt to hide himself from that young man A boy may lock his door, may be warm in bed, may tuck himself up, may draw the clothes over his head, may think himself comfortable and safe, but that young man will softly creep and creep his way to him and tear him open I am a keeping that young man from harming of you at the present moment, with great difficulty I find it wery hard to hold that young man off of your inside Now, what you say?" I said that I would get him the file, and I would get him what broken bits of food I could, and I would come to him at the Battery, early in the morning "Say Lord strike you dead if you don't!" said the man I said so, and he took me down "Now," he pursued, "you remember what you've undertook, and you remember that young man, and you get home!" "Goo-good night, sir," I faltered "Much of that!" said he, glancing about him over the cold wet flat "I wish I was a frog Or a eel!" At the same time, he hugged his shuddering body in both his arms,—clasping himself, as if to hold himself together,—and limped towards the low church wall As I saw him go, picking his way among the nettles, and among the brambles that bound the green mounds, he looked in my young eyes as if he were eluding the hands of the dead people, stretching up cautiously out of their graves, to get a twist upon his ankle and pull him in When he came to the low church wall, he got over it, like a man whose legs were numbed and stiff, and then turned round to look for me When I saw him turning, I set my face towards home, and made the best use of my legs But presently I looked over my shoulder, and saw him going on again towards the river, still hugging himself in both arms, and picking his way with his sore feet among the great stones dropped into the marshes here and there, for steppingplaces when the rains were heavy or the tide was in The marshes were just a long black horizontal line then, as I stopped to look after him; and the river was just another horizontal line, not nearly so broad nor yet so black; and the sky was just a row of long angry red lines and dense black lines intermixed On the edge of the river I could faintly make out the only two black things in all the prospect that seemed to be standing upright; one of these was the beacon by which the sailors steered,—like an unhooped cask upon a pole,—an ugly thing when you were near it; the other, a gibbet, with some chains hanging to it which had once held a pirate The man was limping on towards this latter, as if he were the pirate come to life, and come down, and going back to hook himself up again It gave me a terrible turn when I thought so; and as I saw the cattle lifting their heads to gaze after him, I wondered whether they thought so too I looked all round for the horrible young man, and could see no signs of him But now I was frightened again, and ran home without stopping Chapter II My sister, Mrs Joe Gargery, was more than twenty years older than I, and had established a great reputation with herself and the neighbors because she had brought me up "by hand." Having at that time to find out for myself what the expression meant, and knowing her to have a hard and heavy hand, and to be much in the habit of laying it upon her husband as well as upon me, I supposed that Joe Gargery and I were both brought up by hand She was not a good-looking woman, my sister; and I had a general impression that she must have made Joe Gargery marry her by hand Joe was a fair man, with curls of flaxen hair on each side of his smooth face, and with eyes of such a very undecided blue that they seemed to have somehow got mixed with their own whites He was a mild, good-natured, sweet-tempered, easy-going, foolish, dear fellow,—a sort of Hercules in strength, and also in weakness My sister, Mrs Joe, with black hair and eyes, had such a prevailing redness of skin that I sometimes used to wonder whether it was possible she washed herself with a nutmeg-grater instead of soap She was tall and bony, and almost always wore a coarse apron, fastened over her figure behind with two loops, and having a square impregnable bib in front, that was stuck full of pins and needles She made it a powerful merit in herself, and a strong reproach against Joe, that she wore this apron so much Though I really see no reason why she should have worn it at all; or why, if she did wear it at all, she should not have taken it off, every day of her life Joe's forge adjoined our house, which was a wooden house, as many of the dwellings in our country were,—most of them, at that time When I ran home from the churchyard, the forge was shut up, and Joe was sitting alone in the kitchen Joe and I being fellow-sufferers, and having confidences as such, Joe imparted a confidence to me, the moment I raised the latch of the door and peeped in at him opposite to it, sitting in the chimney corner "Mrs Joe has been out a dozen times, looking for you, Pip And she's out now, making it a baker's dozen." "Is she?" "Yes, Pip," said Joe; "and what's worse, she's got Tickler with her." At this dismal intelligence, I twisted the only button on my waistcoat round and round, and looked in great depression at the fire Tickler was a wax-ended piece of cane, worn smooth by collision with my tickled frame "She sot down," said Joe, "and she got up, and she made a grab at Tickler, and she Ram-paged out That's what she did," said Joe, slowly clearing the fire between the lower bars with the poker, and looking at it; "she Ram-paged out, Pip." "Has she been gone long, Joe?" I always treated him as a larger species of child, and as no more than my equal "Well," said Joe, glancing up at the Dutch clock, "she's been on the Ram-page, this last spell, about five minutes, Pip She's a coming! Get behind the door, old chap, and have the jack-towel betwixt you." I took the advice My sister, Mrs Joe, throwing the door wide open, and finding an obstruction behind it, immediately divined the cause, and applied Tickler to its further investigation She concluded by throwing me—I often served as a connubial missile—at Joe, who, glad to get hold of me on any terms, passed me on into the chimney and quietly fenced me up there with his great leg "Where have you been, you young monkey?" said Mrs Joe, stamping her foot "Tell me directly what you've been doing to wear me away with fret and fright and worrit, or I'd have you out of that corner if you was fifty Pips, and he was five hundred Gargerys." "I have only been to the churchyard," said I, from my stool, crying and rubbing myself "Churchyard!" repeated my sister "If it warn't for me you'd have been to the churchyard long ago, and stayed there Who brought you up by hand?" "You did," said I "And why did I it, I should like to know?" exclaimed my sister I whimpered, "I don't know." "I don't!" said my sister "I'd never it again! I know that I may truly say I've never had this apron of mine off since born you were It's bad enough to be a blacksmith's wife (and him a Gargery) without being your mother." My thoughts strayed from that question as I looked disconsolately at the fire For the fugitive out on the marshes with the ironed leg, the mysterious young man, the file, the food, and the dreadful pledge I was under to commit a larceny on those sheltering premises, rose before me in the avenging coals "Hah!" said Mrs Joe, restoring Tickler to his station "Churchyard, indeed! You may well say churchyard, you two." One of us, by the by, had not said it at all "You'll drive me to the churchyard betwixt you, one of these days, and O, a pr-rrecious pair you'd be without me!" As she applied herself to set the tea-things, Joe peeped down at me over his leg, as if he were mentally casting me and himself up, and calculating what kind of pair we practically should make, under the grievous circumstances foreshadowed After that, he sat feeling his right-side flaxen curls and whisker, and following Mrs Joe about with his blue eyes, as his manner always was at squally times My sister had a trenchant way of cutting our bread and butter for us, that never varied First, with her left hand she jammed the loaf hard and fast against her bib,—where it sometimes got a pin into it, and sometimes a needle, which we afterwards got into our mouths Then she took some butter (not too much) on a knife and spread it on the loaf, in an apothecary kind of way, as if she were making a plaster,—using both sides of the knife with a slapping dexterity, and trimming and moulding the butter off round the crust Then, she gave the knife a final smart wipe on the edge of the plaster, and then sawed a very thick round off the loaf: which she finally, before separating from the loaf, hewed into two halves, of which Joe got one, and I the other On the present occasion, though I was hungry, I dared not eat my slice I felt that I must have something in reserve for my dreadful acquaintance, and his ally the still more dreadful young man I knew Mrs Joe's housekeeping to be of the strictest kind, and that my larcenous researches might find nothing available in the safe Therefore I resolved to put my hunk of bread and butter down the leg of my trousers The effort of resolution necessary to the achievement of this purpose I found to be quite awful It was as if I had to make up my mind to leap from the top of a high house, or plunge into a great depth of water And it was made the more difficult by the unconscious Joe In our already-mentioned freemasonry as fellowsufferers, and in his good-natured companionship with me, it was our evening habit to compare the way we bit through our slices, by silently holding them up to each other's admiration now and then,—which stimulated us to new exertions Tonight, Joe several times invited me, by the display of his fast diminishing slice, to enter upon our usual friendly competition; but he found me, each time, with my yellow mug of tea on one knee, and my untouched bread and butter on the other At last, I desperately considered that the thing I contemplated must be done, and that it had best be done in the least improbable manner consistent with the circumstances I took advantage of a moment when Joe had just looked at me, and got my bread and butter down my leg Joe was evidently made uncomfortable by what he supposed to be my loss of appetite, and took a thoughtful bite out of his slice, which he didn't seem to enjoy He turned it about in his mouth much longer than usual, pondering over it a good deal, and after all gulped it down like a pill He was about to take another bite, and had just got his head on one side for a good purchase on it, when his eye fell on me, and he saw that my bread and butter was gone The wonder and consternation with which Joe stopped on the threshold of his bite and stared at me, were too evident to escape my sister's observation "What's the matter now?" said she, smartly, as she put down her cup "I say, you know!" muttered Joe, shaking his head at me in very serious remonstrance "Pip, old chap! You'll yourself a mischief It'll stick somewhere You can't have chawed it, Pip." "What's the matter now?" repeated my sister, more sharply than before "If you can cough any trifle on it up, Pip, I'd recommend you to it," said Joe, all aghast "Manners is manners, but still your elth's your elth." By this time, my sister was quite desperate, so she pounced on Joe, and, taking him by the two whiskers, knocked his head for a little while against the wall behind him, while I sat in the corner, looking guiltily on "Now, perhaps you'll mention what's the matter," said my sister, out of breath, "you staring great stuck pig." Joe looked at her in a helpless way, then took a helpless bite, and looked at me again "You know, Pip," said Joe, solemnly, with his last bite in his cheek, and speaking in a confidential voice, as if we two were quite alone, "you and me is always friends, and I'd be the last to tell upon you, any time But such a—" he moved his chair and looked about the floor between us, and then again at me— "such a most oncommon Bolt as that!" "Been bolting his food, has he?" cried my sister "You know, old chap," said Joe, looking at me, and not at Mrs Joe, with his bite still in his cheek, "I Bolted, myself, when I was your age—frequent—and as a boy I've been among a many Bolters; but I never see your Bolting equal yet, Pip, and it's a mercy you ain't Bolted dead." My sister made a dive at me, and fished me up by the hair, saying nothing more than the awful words, "You come along and be dosed." Some medical beast had revived Tar-water in those days as a fine medicine, and Mrs Joe always kept a supply of it in the cupboard; having a belief in its virtues correspondent to its nastiness At the best of times, so much of this elixir was administered to me as a choice restorative, that I was conscious of going about, smelling like a new fence On this particular evening the urgency of my case demanded a pint of this mixture, which was poured down my throat, for my greater comfort, while Mrs Joe held my head under her arm, as a boot would be held in a bootjack Joe got off with half a pint; but was made to swallow that (much to his disturbance, as he sat slowly munching and meditating before the fire), "because he had had a turn." Judging from myself, I should say he certainly had a turn afterwards, if he had had none before Conscience is a dreadful thing when it accuses man or boy; but when, in the case of a boy, that secret burden co-operates with another secret burden down the leg of his trousers, it is (as I can testify) a great punishment The guilty knowledge that I was going to rob Mrs Joe—I never thought I was going to rob Joe, for I never thought of any of the housekeeping property as his—united to the necessity of always keeping one hand on my bread and butter as I sat, or when I was ordered about the kitchen on any small errand, almost drove me out of my mind Then, as the marsh winds made the fire glow and flare, I thought I heard the voice outside, of the man with the iron on his leg who had sworn me to secrecy, declaring that he couldn't and wouldn't starve until to-morrow, but must be fed now At other times, I thought, What if the young man who was with so much difficulty restrained from imbruing his hands in me should yield to a constitutional impatience, or should mistake the time, and should think himself accredited to my heart and liver to-night, instead of to-morrow! If ever anybody's hair stood on end with terror, mine must have done so then But, perhaps, nobody's ever did? It was Christmas Eve, and I had to stir the pudding for next day, with a copperstick, from seven to eight by the Dutch clock I tried it with the load upon my leg (and that made me think afresh of the man with the load on his leg), and found the tendency of exercise to bring the bread and butter out at my ankle, quite unmanageable Happily I slipped away, and deposited that part of my conscience in my garret bedroom "Hark!" said I, when I had done my stirring, and was taking a final warm in the chimney corner before being sent up to bed; "was that great guns, Joe?" "Ah!" said Joe "There's another conwict off." "What does that mean, Joe?" said I Mrs Joe, who always took explanations upon herself, said, snappishly, "Escaped Escaped." Administering the definition like Tar-water While Mrs Joe sat with her head bending over her needlework, I put my mouth into the forms of saying to Joe, "What's a convict?" Joe put his mouth into the forms of returning such a highly elaborate answer, that I could make out nothing of it but the single word "Pip." "There was a conwict off last night," said Joe, aloud, "after sunset-gun And they fired warning of him And now it appears they're firing warning of another." "Who's firing?" said I "Drat that boy," interposed my sister, frowning at me over her work, "what a questioner he is Ask no questions, and you'll be told no lies." It was not very polite to herself, I thought, to imply that I should be told lies by her even if I did ask questions But she never was polite unless there was company At this point Joe greatly augmented my curiosity by taking the utmost pains to open his mouth very wide, and to put it into the form of a word that looked to me like "sulks." Therefore, I naturally pointed to Mrs Joe, and put my mouth into the form of saying, "her?" But Joe wouldn't hear of that, at all, and again opened his mouth very wide, and shook the form of a most emphatic word out of it But I could make nothing of the word "Mrs Joe," said I, as a last resort, "I should like to know—if you wouldn't much mind—where the firing comes from?" "Lord bless the boy!" exclaimed my sister, as if she didn't quite mean that but rather the contrary "From the Hulks!" "Oh-h!" said I, looking at Joe "Hulks!" Joe gave a reproachful cough, as much as to say, "Well, I told you so." "And please, what's Hulks?" said I "That's the way with this boy!" exclaimed my sister, pointing me out with her needle and thread, and shaking her head at me "Answer him one question, and he'll ask you a dozen directly Hulks are prison-ships, right 'cross th' meshes." We always used that name for marshes, in our country "I wonder who's put into prison-ships, and why they're put there?" said I, in a general way, and with quiet desperation It was too much for Mrs Joe, who immediately rose "I tell you what, young fellow," said she, "I didn't bring you up by hand to badger people's lives out It would be blame to me and not praise, if I had People are put in the Hulks because they murder, and because they rob, and forge, and all sorts of bad; and they always begin by asking questions Now, you get along to bed!" I was never allowed a candle to light me to bed, and, as I went up stairs in the dark, with my head tingling,—from Mrs Joe's thimble having played the tambourine upon it, to accompany her last words,—I felt fearfully sensible of the great convenience that the hulks were handy for me I was clearly on my way there I had begun by asking questions, and I was going to rob Mrs Joe Since that time, which is far enough away now, I have often thought that few people know what secrecy there is in the young under terror No matter how unreasonable the terror, so that it be terror I was in mortal terror of the young man who wanted my heart and liver; I was in mortal terror of my interlocutor with the iron leg; I was in mortal terror of myself, from whom an awful promise had been extracted; I had no hope of deliverance through my all-powerful sister, who repulsed me at every turn; I am afraid to think of what I might have done on requirement, in the secrecy of my terror If I slept at all that night, it was only to imagine myself drifting down the river on a strong spring-tide, to the Hulks; a ghostly pirate calling out to me through a "Did she linger long, Joe?" "Arter you was took ill, pretty much about what you might call (if you was put to it) a week," said Joe; still determined, on my account, to come at everything by degrees "Dear Joe, have you heard what becomes of her property?" "Well, old chap," said Joe, "it appear that she had settled the most of it, which I meantersay tied it up, on Miss Estella But she had wrote out a little coddleshell in her own hand a day or two afore the accident, leaving a cool four thousand to Mr Matthew Pocket And why, you suppose, above all things, Pip, she left that cool four thousand unto him? 'Because of Pip's account of him, the said Matthew.' I am told by Biddy, that air the writing," said Joe, repeating the legal turn as if it did him infinite good, "'account of him the said Matthew.' And a cool four thousand, Pip!" I never discovered from whom Joe derived the conventional temperature of the four thousand pounds; but it appeared to make the sum of money more to him, and he had a manifest relish in insisting on its being cool This account gave me great joy, as it perfected the only good thing I had done I asked Joe whether he had heard if any of the other relations had any legacies? "Miss Sarah," said Joe, "she have twenty-five pound perannium fur to buy pills, on account of being bilious Miss Georgiana, she have twenty pound down Mrs.—what's the name of them wild beasts with humps, old chap?" "Camels?" said I, wondering why he could possibly want to know Joe nodded "Mrs Camels," by which I presently understood he meant Camilla, "she have five pound fur to buy rushlights to put her in spirits when she wake up in the night." The accuracy of these recitals was sufficiently obvious to me, to give me great confidence in Joe's information "And now," said Joe, "you ain't that strong yet, old chap, that you can take in more nor one additional shovelful to-day Old Orlick he's been a bustin' open a dwelling-ouse." "Whose?" said I "Not, I grant you, but what his manners is given to blusterous," said Joe, apologetically; "still, a Englishman's ouse is his Castle, and castles must not be busted 'cept when done in war time And wotsume'er the failings on his part, he were a corn and seedsman in his hart." "Is it Pumblechook's house that has been broken into, then?" "That's it, Pip," said Joe; "and they took his till, and they took his cash-box, and they drinked his wine, and they partook of his wittles, and they slapped his face, and they pulled his nose, and they tied him up to his bedpust, and they giv' him a dozen, and they stuffed his mouth full of flowering annuals to prewent his crying out But he knowed Orlick, and Orlick's in the county jail." By these approaches we arrived at unrestricted conversation I was slow to gain strength, but I did slowly and surely become less weak, and Joe stayed with me, and I fancied I was little Pip again For the tenderness of Joe was so beautifully proportioned to my need, that I was like a child in his hands He would sit and talk to me in the old confidence, and with the old simplicity, and in the old unassertive protecting way, so that I would half believe that all my life since the days of the old kitchen was one of the mental troubles of the fever that was gone He did everything for me except the household work, for which he had engaged a very decent woman, after paying off the laundress on his first arrival "Which I assure you, Pip," he would often say, in explanation of that liberty; "I found her a tapping the spare bed, like a cask of beer, and drawing off the feathers in a bucket, for sale Which she would have tapped yourn next, and draw'd it off with you a laying on it, and was then a carrying away the coals gradiwally in the soup-tureen and wegetable-dishes, and the wine and spirits in your Wellington boots." We looked forward to the day when I should go out for a ride, as we had once looked forward to the day of my apprenticeship And when the day came, and an open carriage was got into the Lane, Joe wrapped me up, took me in his arms, carried me down to it, and put me in, as if I were still the small helpless creature to whom he had so abundantly given of the wealth of his great nature And Joe got in beside me, and we drove away together into the country, where the rich summer growth was already on the trees and on the grass, and sweet summer scents filled all the air The day happened to be Sunday, and when I looked on the loveliness around me, and thought how it had grown and changed, and how the little wild-flowers had been forming, and the voices of the birds had been strengthening, by day and by night, under the sun and under the stars, while poor I lay burning and tossing on my bed, the mere remembrance of having burned and tossed there came like a check upon my peace But when I heard the Sunday bells, and looked around a little more upon the outspread beauty, I felt that I was not nearly thankful enough,—that I was too weak yet to be even that,— and I laid my head on Joe's shoulder, as I had laid it long ago when he had taken me to the Fair or where not, and it was too much for my young senses More composure came to me after a while, and we talked as we used to talk, lying on the grass at the old Battery There was no change whatever in Joe Exactly what he had been in my eyes then, he was in my eyes still; just as simply faithful, and as simply right When we got back again, and he lifted me out, and carried me—so easily!— across the court and up the stairs, I thought of that eventful Christmas Day when he had carried me over the marshes We had not yet made any allusion to my change of fortune, nor did I know how much of my late history he was acquainted with I was so doubtful of myself now, and put so much trust in him, that I could not satisfy myself whether I ought to refer to it when he did not "Have you heard, Joe," I asked him that evening, upon further consideration, as he smoked his pipe at the window, "who my patron was?" "I heerd," returned Joe, "as it were not Miss Havisham, old chap." "Did you hear who it was, Joe?" "Well! I heerd as it were a person what sent the person what giv' you the banknotes at the Jolly Bargemen, Pip." "So it was." "Astonishing!" said Joe, in the placidest way "Did you hear that he was dead, Joe?" I presently asked, with increasing diffidence "Which? Him as sent the bank-notes, Pip?" "Yes." "I think," said Joe, after meditating a long time, and looking rather evasively at the window-seat, "as I did hear tell that how he were something or another in a general way in that direction." "Did you hear anything of his circumstances, Joe?" "Not partickler, Pip." "If you would like to hear, Joe—" I was beginning, when Joe got up and came to my sofa "Lookee here, old chap," said Joe, bending over me "Ever the best of friends; ain't us, Pip?" I was ashamed to answer him "Wery good, then," said Joe, as if I had answered; "that's all right; that's agreed upon Then why go into subjects, old chap, which as betwixt two sech must be for ever onnecessary? There's subjects enough as betwixt two sech, without onnecessary ones Lord! To think of your poor sister and her Rampages! And don't you remember Tickler?" "I indeed, Joe." "Lookee here, old chap," said Joe "I done what I could to keep you and Tickler in sunders, but my power were not always fully equal to my inclinations For when your poor sister had a mind to drop into you, it were not so much," said Joe, in his favorite argumentative way, "that she dropped into me too, if I put myself in opposition to her, but that she dropped into you always heavier for it I noticed that It ain't a grab at a man's whisker, not yet a shake or two of a man (to which your sister was quite welcome), that 'ud put a man off from getting a little child out of punishment But when that little child is dropped into heavier for that grab of whisker or shaking, then that man naterally up and says to himself, 'Where is the good as you are a doing? I grant you I see the 'arm,' says the man, 'but I don't see the good I call upon you, sir, therefore, to pint out the good.'" "The man says?" I observed, as Joe waited for me to speak "The man says," Joe assented "Is he right, that man?" "Dear Joe, he is always right." "Well, old chap," said Joe, "then abide by your words If he's always right (which in general he's more likely wrong), he's right when he says this: Supposing ever you kep any little matter to yourself, when you was a little child, you kep it mostly because you know'd as J Gargery's power to part you and Tickler in sunders were not fully equal to his inclinations Theerfore, think no more of it as betwixt two sech, and not let us pass remarks upon onnecessary subjects Biddy giv' herself a deal o' trouble with me afore I left (for I am almost awful dull), as I should view it in this light, and, viewing it in this light, as I should so put it Both of which," said Joe, quite charmed with his logical arrangement, "being done, now this to you a true friend, say Namely You mustn't go a overdoing on it, but you must have your supper and your wine and water, and you must be put betwixt the sheets." The delicacy with which Joe dismissed this theme, and the sweet tact and kindness with which Biddy—who with her woman's wit had found me out so soon—had prepared him for it, made a deep impression on my mind But whether Joe knew how poor I was, and how my great expectations had all dissolved, like our own marsh mists before the sun, I could not understand Another thing in Joe that I could not understand when it first began to develop itself, but which I soon arrived at a sorrowful comprehension of, was this: As I became stronger and better, Joe became a little less easy with me In my weakness and entire dependence on him, the dear fellow had fallen into the old tone, and called me by the old names, the dear "old Pip, old chap," that now were music in my ears I too had fallen into the old ways, only happy and thankful that he let me But, imperceptibly, though I held by them fast, Joe's hold upon them began to slacken; and whereas I wondered at this, at first, I soon began to understand that the cause of it was in me, and that the fault of it was all mine Ah! Had I given Joe no reason to doubt my constancy, and to think that in prosperity I should grow cold to him and cast him off? Had I given Joe's innocent heart no cause to feel instinctively that as I got stronger, his hold upon me would be weaker, and that he had better loosen it in time and let me go, before I plucked myself away? It was on the third or fourth occasion of my going out walking in the Temple Gardens leaning on Joe's arm, that I saw this change in him very plainly We had been sitting in the bright warm sunlight, looking at the river, and I chanced to say as we got up,— "See, Joe! I can walk quite strongly Now, you shall see me walk back by myself." "Which not overdo it, Pip," said Joe; "but I shall be happy fur to see you able, sir." The last word grated on me; but how could I remonstrate! I walked no further than the gate of the gardens, and then pretended to be weaker than I was, and asked Joe for his arm Joe gave it me, but was thoughtful I, for my part, was thoughtful too; for, how best to check this growing change in Joe was a great perplexity to my remorseful thoughts That I was ashamed to tell him exactly how I was placed, and what I had come down to, I not seek to conceal; but I hope my reluctance was not quite an unworthy one He would want to help me out of his little savings, I knew, and I knew that he ought not to help me, and that I must not suffer him to it It was a thoughtful evening with both of us But, before we went to bed, I had resolved that I would wait over to-morrow,—to-morrow being Sunday,—and would begin my new course with the new week On Monday morning I would speak to Joe about this change, I would lay aside this last vestige of reserve, I would tell him what I had in my thoughts (that Secondly, not yet arrived at), and why I had not decided to go out to Herbert, and then the change would be conquered for ever As I cleared, Joe cleared, and it seemed as though he had sympathetically arrived at a resolution too We had a quiet day on the Sunday, and we rode out into the country, and then walked in the fields "I feel thankful that I have been ill, Joe," I said "Dear old Pip, old chap, you're a'most come round, sir." "It has been a memorable time for me, Joe." "Likeways for myself, sir," Joe returned "We have had a time together, Joe, that I can never forget There were days once, I know, that I did for a while forget; but I never shall forget these." "Pip," said Joe, appearing a little hurried and troubled, "there has been larks And, dear sir, what have been betwixt us—have been." At night, when I had gone to bed, Joe came into my room, as he had done all through my recovery He asked me if I felt sure that I was as well as in the morning? "Yes, dear Joe, quite." "And are always a getting stronger, old chap?" "Yes, dear Joe, steadily." Joe patted the coverlet on my shoulder with his great good hand, and said, in what I thought a husky voice, "Good night!" When I got up in the morning, refreshed and stronger yet, I was full of my resolution to tell Joe all, without delay I would tell him before breakfast I would dress at once and go to his room and surprise him; for, it was the first day I had been up early I went to his room, and he was not there Not only was he not there, but his box was gone I hurried then to the breakfast-table, and on it found a letter These were its brief contents:— "Not wishful to intrude I have departured fur you are well again dear Pip and will better without JO "P.S Ever the best of friends." Enclosed in the letter was a receipt for the debt and costs on which I had been arrested Down to that moment, I had vainly supposed that my creditor had withdrawn, or suspended proceedings until I should be quite recovered I had never dreamed of Joe's having paid the money; but Joe had paid it, and the receipt was in his name What remained for me now, but to follow him to the dear old forge, and there to have out my disclosure to him, and my penitent remonstrance with him, and there to relieve my mind and heart of that reserved Secondly, which had begun as a vague something lingering in my thoughts, and had formed into a settled purpose? The purpose was, that I would go to Biddy, that I would show her how humbled and repentant I came back, that I would tell her how I had lost all I once hoped for, that I would remind her of our old confidences in my first unhappy time Then I would say to her, "Biddy, I think you once liked me very well, when my errant heart, even while it strayed away from you, was quieter and better with you than it ever has been since If you can like me only half as well once more, if you can take me with all my faults and disappointments on my head, if you can receive me like a forgiven child (and indeed I am as sorry, Biddy, and have as much need of a hushing voice and a soothing hand), I hope I am a little worthier of you that I was,—not much, but a little And, Biddy, it shall rest with you to say whether I shall work at the forge with Joe, or whether I shall try for any different occupation down in this country, or whether we shall go away to a distant place where an opportunity awaits me which I set aside, when it was offered, until I knew your answer And now, dear Biddy, if you can tell me that you will go through the world with me, you will surely make it a better world for me, and me a better man for it, and I will try hard to make it a better world for you." Such was my purpose After three days more of recovery, I went down to the old place to put it in execution And how I sped in it is all I have left to tell Chapter LVIII The tidings of my high fortunes having had a heavy fall had got down to my native place and its neighborhood before I got there I found the Blue Boar in possession of the intelligence, and I found that it made a great change in the Boar's demeanour Whereas the Boar had cultivated my good opinion with warm assiduity when I was coming into property, the Boar was exceedingly cool on the subject now that I was going out of property It was evening when I arrived, much fatigued by the journey I had so often made so easily The Boar could not put me into my usual bedroom, which was engaged (probably by some one who had expectations), and could only assign me a very indifferent chamber among the pigeons and post-chaises up the yard But I had as sound a sleep in that lodging as in the most superior accommodation the Boar could have given me, and the quality of my dreams was about the same as in the best bedroom Early in the morning, while my breakfast was getting ready, I strolled round by Satis House There were printed bills on the gate and on bits of carpet hanging out of the windows, announcing a sale by auction of the Household Furniture and Effects, next week The House itself was to be sold as old building materials, and pulled down LOT was marked in whitewashed knock-knee letters on the brew house; LOT on that part of the main building which had been so long shut up Other lots were marked off on other parts of the structure, and the ivy had been torn down to make room for the inscriptions, and much of it trailed low in the dust and was withered already Stepping in for a moment at the open gate, and looking around me with the uncomfortable air of a stranger who had no business there, I saw the auctioneer's clerk walking on the casks and telling them off for the information of a catalogue-compiler, pen in hand, who made a temporary desk of the wheeled chair I had so often pushed along to the tune of Old Clem When I got back to my breakfast in the Boar's coffee-room, I found Mr Pumblechook conversing with the landlord Mr Pumblechook (not improved in appearance by his late nocturnal adventure) was waiting for me, and addressed me in the following terms:— "Young man, I am sorry to see you brought low But what else could be expected! what else could be expected!" As he extended his hand with a magnificently forgiving air, and as I was broken by illness and unfit to quarrel, I took it "William," said Mr Pumblechook to the waiter, "put a muffin on table And has it come to this! Has it come to this!" I frowningly sat down to my breakfast Mr Pumblechook stood over me and poured out my tea—before I could touch the teapot—with the air of a benefactor who was resolved to be true to the last "William," said Mr Pumblechook, mournfully, "put the salt on In happier times," addressing me, "I think you took sugar? And did you take milk? You did Sugar and milk William, bring a watercress." "Thank you," said I, shortly, "but I don't eat watercresses." "You don't eat 'em," returned Mr Pumblechook, sighing and nodding his head several times, as if he might have expected that, and as if abstinence from watercresses were consistent with my downfall "True The simple fruits of the earth No You needn't bring any, William." I went on with my breakfast, and Mr Pumblechook continued to stand over me, staring fishily and breathing noisily, as he always did "Little more than skin and bone!" mused Mr Pumblechook, aloud "And yet when he went from here (I may say with my blessing), and I spread afore him my humble store, like the Bee, he was as plump as a Peach!" This reminded me of the wonderful difference between the servile manner in which he had offered his hand in my new prosperity, saying, "May I?" and the ostentatious clemency with which he had just now exhibited the same fat five fingers "Hah!" he went on, handing me the bread and butter "And air you a going to Joseph?" "In heaven's name," said I, firing in spite of myself, "what does it matter to you where I am going? Leave that teapot alone." It was the worst course I could have taken, because it gave Pumblechook the opportunity he wanted "Yes, young man," said he, releasing the handle of the article in question, retiring a step or two from my table, and speaking for the behoof of the landlord and waiter at the door, "I will leave that teapot alone You are right, young man For once you are right I forgit myself when I take such an interest in your breakfast, as to wish your frame, exhausted by the debilitating effects of prodigygality, to be stimilated by the 'olesome nourishment of your forefathers And yet," said Pumblechook, turning to the landlord and waiter, and pointing me out at arm's length, "this is him as I ever sported with in his days of happy infancy! Tell me not it cannot be; I tell you this is him!" A low murmur from the two replied The waiter appeared to be particularly affected "This is him," said Pumblechook, "as I have rode in my shay-cart This is him as I have seen brought up by hand This is him untoe the sister of which I was uncle by marriage, as her name was Georgiana M'ria from her own mother, let him deny it if he can!" The waiter seemed convinced that I could not deny it, and that it gave the case a black look "Young man," said Pumblechook, screwing his head at me in the old fashion, "you air a going to Joseph What does it matter to me, you ask me, where you air a going? I say to you, Sir, you air a going to Joseph." The waiter coughed, as if he modestly invited me to get over that "Now," said Pumblechook, and all this with a most exasperating air of saying in the cause of virtue what was perfectly convincing and conclusive, "I will tell you what to say to Joseph Here is Squires of the Boar present, known and respected in this town, and here is William, which his father's name was Potkins if I not deceive myself." "You not, sir," said William "In their presence," pursued Pumblechook, "I will tell you, young man, what to say to Joseph Says you, "Joseph, I have this day seen my earliest benefactor and the founder of my fortun's I will name no names, Joseph, but so they are pleased to call him up town, and I have seen that man." "I swear I don't see him here," said I "Say that likewise," retorted Pumblechook "Say you said that, and even Joseph will probably betray surprise." "There you quite mistake him," said I "I know better." "Says you," Pumblechook went on, "'Joseph, I have seen that man, and that man bears you no malice and bears me no malice He knows your character, Joseph, and is well acquainted with your pig-headedness and ignorance; and he knows my character, Joseph, and he knows my want of gratitoode Yes, Joseph,' says you," here Pumblechook shook his head and hand at me, "'he knows my total deficiency of common human gratitoode He knows it, Joseph, as none can You not know it, Joseph, having no call to know it, but that man do.'" Windy donkey as he was, it really amazed me that he could have the face to talk thus to mine "Says you, 'Joseph, he gave me a little message, which I will now repeat It was that, in my being brought low, he saw the finger of Providence He knowed that finger when he saw Joseph, and he saw it plain It pinted out this writing, Joseph Reward of ingratitoode to his earliest benefactor, and founder of fortun's But that man said he did not repent of what he had done, Joseph Not at all It was right to it, it was kind to it, it was benevolent to it, and he would it again.'" "It's pity," said I, scornfully, as I finished my interrupted breakfast, "that the man did not say what he had done and would again." "Squires of the Boar!" Pumblechook was now addressing the landlord, "and William! I have no objections to your mentioning, either up town or down town, if such should be your wishes, that it was right to it, kind to it, benevolent to it, and that I would it again." With those words the Impostor shook them both by the hand, with an air, and left the house; leaving me much more astonished than delighted by the virtues of that same indefinite "it." I was not long after him in leaving the house too, and when I went down the High Street I saw him holding forth (no doubt to the same effect) at his shop door to a select group, who honored me with very unfavorable glances as I passed on the opposite side of the way But, it was only the pleasanter to turn to Biddy and to Joe, whose great forbearance shone more brightly than before, if that could be, contrasted with this brazen pretender I went towards them slowly, for my limbs were weak, but with a sense of increasing relief as I drew nearer to them, and a sense of leaving arrogance and untruthfulness further and further behind The June weather was delicious The sky was blue, the larks were soaring high over the green corn, I thought all that countryside more beautiful and peaceful by far than I had ever known it to be yet Many pleasant pictures of the life that I would lead there, and of the change for the better that would come over my character when I had a guiding spirit at my side whose simple faith and clear home wisdom I had proved, beguiled my way They awakened a tender emotion in me; for my heart was softened by my return, and such a change had come to pass, that I felt like one who was toiling home barefoot from distant travel, and whose wanderings had lasted many years The schoolhouse where Biddy was mistress I had never seen; but, the little roundabout lane by which I entered the village, for quietness' sake, took me past it I was disappointed to find that the day was a holiday; no children were there, and Biddy's house was closed Some hopeful notion of seeing her, busily engaged in her daily duties, before she saw me, had been in my mind and was defeated But the forge was a very short distance off, and I went towards it under the sweet green limes, listening for the clink of Joe's hammer Long after I ought to have heard it, and long after I had fancied I heard it and found it but a fancy, all was still The limes were there, and the white thorns were there, and the chestnuttrees were there, and their leaves rustled harmoniously when I stopped to listen; but, the clink of Joe's hammer was not in the midsummer wind Almost fearing, without knowing why, to come in view of the forge, I saw it at last, and saw that it was closed No gleam of fire, no glittering shower of sparks, no roar of bellows; all shut up, and still But the house was not deserted, and the best parlor seemed to be in use, for there were white curtains fluttering in its window, and the window was open and gay with flowers I went softly towards it, meaning to peep over the flowers, when Joe and Biddy stood before me, arm in arm At first Biddy gave a cry, as if she thought it was my apparition, but in another moment she was in my embrace I wept to see her, and she wept to see me; I, because she looked so fresh and pleasant; she, because I looked so worn and white "But dear Biddy, how smart you are!" "Yes, dear Pip." "And Joe, how smart you are!" "Yes, dear old Pip, old chap." I looked at both of them, from one to the other, and then— "It's my wedding-day!" cried Biddy, in a burst of happiness, "and I am married to Joe!" They had taken me into the kitchen, and I had laid my head down on the old deal table Biddy held one of my hands to her lips, and Joe's restoring touch was on my shoulder "Which he warn't strong enough, my dear, fur to be surprised," said Joe And Biddy said, "I ought to have thought of it, dear Joe, but I was too happy." They were both so overjoyed to see me, so proud to see me, so touched by my coming to them, so delighted that I should have come by accident to make their day complete! My first thought was one of great thankfulness that I had never breathed this last baffled hope to Joe How often, while he was with me in my illness, had it risen to my lips! How irrevocable would have been his knowledge of it, if he had remained with me but another hour! "Dear Biddy," said I, "you have the best husband in the whole world, and if you could have seen him by my bed you would have—But no, you couldn't love him better than you do." "No, I couldn't indeed," said Biddy "And, dear Joe, you have the best wife in the whole world, and she will make you as happy as even you deserve to be, you dear, good, noble Joe!" Joe looked at me with a quivering lip, and fairly put his sleeve before his eyes "And Joe and Biddy both, as you have been to church to-day, and are in charity and love with all mankind, receive my humble thanks for all you have done for me, and all I have so ill repaid! And when I say that I am going away within the hour, for I am soon going abroad, and that I shall never rest until I have worked for the money with which you have kept me out of prison, and have sent it to you, don't think, dear Joe and Biddy, that if I could repay it a thousand times over, I suppose I could cancel a farthing of the debt I owe you, or that I would so if I could!" They were both melted by these words, and both entreated me to say no more "But I must say more Dear Joe, I hope you will have children to love, and that some little fellow will sit in this chimney-corner of a winter night, who may remind you of another little fellow gone out of it for ever Don't tell him, Joe, that I was thankless; don't tell him, Biddy, that I was ungenerous and unjust; only tell him that I honored you both, because you were both so good and true, and that, as your child, I said it would be natural to him to grow up a much better man than I did." "I ain't a going," said Joe, from behind his sleeve, "to tell him nothink o' that natur, Pip Nor Biddy ain't Nor yet no one ain't." "And now, though I know you have already done it in your own kind hearts, pray tell me, both, that you forgive me! Pray let me hear you say the words, that I may carry the sound of them away with me, and then I shall be able to believe that you can trust me, and think better of me, in the time to come!" "O dear old Pip, old chap," said Joe "God knows as I forgive you, if I have anythink to forgive!" "Amen! And God knows I do!" echoed Biddy "Now let me go up and look at my old little room, and rest there a few minutes by myself And then, when I have eaten and drunk with you, go with me as far as the finger-post, dear Joe and Biddy, before we say good by!" I sold all I had, and put aside as much as I could, for a composition with my creditors,—who gave me ample time to pay them in full,—and I went out and joined Herbert Within a month, I had quitted England, and within two months I was clerk to Clarriker and Co., and within four months I assumed my first undivided responsibility For the beam across the parlor ceiling at Mill Pond Bank had then ceased to tremble under old Bill Barley's growls and was at peace, and Herbert had gone away to marry Clara, and I was left in sole charge of the Eastern Branch until he brought her back Many a year went round before I was a partner in the House; but I lived happily with Herbert and his wife, and lived frugally, and paid my debts, and maintained a constant correspondence with Biddy and Joe It was not until I became third in the Firm, that Clarriker betrayed me to Herbert; but he then declared that the secret of Herbert's partnership had been long enough upon his conscience, and he must tell it So he told it, and Herbert was as much moved as amazed, and the dear fellow and I were not the worse friends for the long concealment I must not leave it to be supposed that we were ever a great House, or that we made mints of money We were not in a grand way of business, but we had a good name, and worked for our profits, and did very well We owed so much to Herbert's ever cheerful industry and readiness, that I often wondered how I had conceived that old idea of his inaptitude, until I was one day enlightened by the reflection, that perhaps the inaptitude had never been in him at all, but had been in me Chapter LIX For eleven years, I had not seen Joe nor Biddy with my bodily Eyes,—though they had both been often before my fancy in the East,—when, upon an evening in December, an hour or two after dark, I laid my hand softly on the latch of the old kitchen door I touched it so softly that I was not heard, and looked in unseen There, smoking his pipe in the old place by the kitchen firelight, as hale and as strong as ever, though a little gray, sat Joe; and there, fenced into the corner with Joe's leg, and sitting on my own little stool looking at the fire, was—I again! "We giv' him the name of Pip for your sake, dear old chap," said Joe, delighted, when I took another stool by the child's side (but I did not rumple his hair), "and we hoped he might grow a little bit like you, and we think he do." I thought so too, and I took him out for a walk next morning, and we talked immensely, understanding one another to perfection And I took him down to the churchyard, and set him on a certain tombstone there, and he showed me from that elevation which stone was sacred to the memory of Philip Pirrip, late of this Parish, and Also Georgiana, Wife of the Above "Biddy," said I, when I talked with her after dinner, as her little girl lay sleeping in her lap, "you must give Pip to me one of these days; or lend him, at all events." "No, no," said Biddy, gently "You must marry." "So Herbert and Clara say, but I don't think I shall, Biddy I have so settled down in their home, that it's not at all likely I am already quite an old bachelor." Biddy looked down at her child, and put its little hand to her lips, and then put the good matronly hand with which she had touched it into mine There was something in the action, and in the light pressure of Biddy's wedding-ring, that had a very pretty eloquence in it "Dear Pip," said Biddy, "you are sure you don't fret for her?" "O no,—I think not, Biddy." "Tell me as an old, old friend Have you quite forgotten her? "My dear Biddy, I have forgotten nothing in my life that ever had a foremost place there, and little that ever had any place there But that poor dream, as I once used to call it, has all gone by, Biddy,—all gone by!" Nevertheless, I knew, while I said those words, that I secretly intended to revisit the site of the old house that evening, alone, for her sake Yes, even so For Estella's sake I had heard of her as leading a most unhappy life, and as being separated from her husband, who had used her with great cruelty, and who had become quite renowned as a compound of pride, avarice, brutality, and meanness And I had heard of the death of her husband, from an accident consequent on his illtreatment of a horse This release had befallen her some two years before; for anything I knew, she was married again The early dinner hour at Joe's, left me abundance of time, without hurrying my talk with Biddy, to walk over to the old spot before dark But, what with loitering on the way to look at old objects and to think of old times, the day had quite declined when I came to the place There was no house now, no brewery, no building whatever left, but the wall of the old garden The cleared space had been enclosed with a rough fence, and looking over it, I saw that some of the old ivy had struck root anew, and was growing green on low quiet mounds of ruin A gate in the fence standing ajar, I pushed it open, and went in A cold silvery mist had veiled the afternoon, and the moon was not yet up to scatter it But, the stars were shining beyond the mist, and the moon was coming, and the evening was not dark I could trace out where every part of the old house had been, and where the brewery had been, and where the gates, and where the casks I had done so, and was looking along the desolate garden walk, when I beheld a solitary figure in it The figure showed itself aware of me, as I advanced It had been moving towards me, but it stood still As I drew nearer, I saw it to be the figure of a woman As I drew nearer yet, it was about to turn away, when it stopped, and let me come up with it Then, it faltered, as if much surprised, and uttered my name, and I cried out,— "Estella!" "I am greatly changed I wonder you know me." The freshness of her beauty was indeed gone, but its indescribable majesty and its indescribable charm remained Those attractions in it, I had seen before; what I had never seen before, was the saddened, softened light of the once proud eyes; what I had never felt before was the friendly touch of the once insensible hand We sat down on a bench that was near, and I said, "After so many years, it is strange that we should thus meet again, Estella, here where our first meeting was! Do you often come back?" "I have never been here since." "Nor I." The moon began to rise, and I thought of the placid look at the white ceiling, which had passed away The moon began to rise, and I thought of the pressure on my hand when I had spoken the last words he had heard on earth Estella was the next to break the silence that ensued between us "I have very often hoped and intended to come back, but have been prevented by many circumstances Poor, poor old place!" The silvery mist was touched with the first rays of the moonlight, and the same rays touched the tears that dropped from her eyes Not knowing that I saw them, and setting herself to get the better of them, she said quietly,— "Were you wondering, as you walked along, how it came to be left in this condition?" "Yes, Estella." "The ground belongs to me It is the only possession I have not relinquished Everything else has gone from me, little by little, but I have kept this It was the subject of the only determined resistance I made in all the wretched years." "Is it to be built on?" "At last, it is I came here to take leave of it before its change And you," she said, in a voice of touching interest to a wanderer,—"you live abroad still?" "Still." "And well, I am sure?" "I work pretty hard for a sufficient living, and therefore—yes, I well." "I have often thought of you," said Estella "Have you?" "Of late, very often There was a long hard time when I kept far from me the remembrance of what I had thrown away when I was quite ignorant of its worth But since my duty has not been incompatible with the admission of that remembrance, I have given it a place in my heart." "You have always held your place in my heart," I answered And we were silent again until she spoke "I little thought," said Estella, "that I should take leave of you in taking leave of this spot I am very glad to so." "Glad to part again, Estella? To me, parting is a painful thing To me, the remembrance of our last parting has been ever mournful and painful." "But you said to me," returned Estella, very earnestly, "'God bless you, God forgive you!' And if you could say that to me then, you will not hesitate to say that to me now,—now, when suffering has been stronger than all other teaching, and has taught me to understand what your heart used to be I have been bent and broken, but—I hope—into a better shape Be as considerate and good to me as you were, and tell me we are friends." "We are friends," said I, rising and bending over her, as she rose from the bench "And will continue friends apart," said Estella I took her hand in mine, and we went out of the ruined place; and, as the morning mists had risen long ago when I first left the forge, so the evening mists were rising now, and in all the broad expanse of tranquil light they showed to me, I saw no shadow of another parting from her Prepared and Published by: Ebd E-BooksDirectory.com [...]... "Leave any for him? Who's him?" said my friend, stopping in his crunching of pie-crust "The young man That you spoke of That was hid with you." "Oh ah!" he returned, with something like a gruff laugh "Him? Yes, yes! He don't want no wittles." "I thought he looked as if he did," said I The man stopped eating, and regarded me with the keenest scrutiny and the greatest surprise "Looked? When?" "Just now."... cared where he went As we came nearer to the shouting, it became more and more apparent that it was made by more than one voice Sometimes, it seemed to stop altogether, and then the soldiers stopped When it broke out again, the soldiers made for it at a greater rate than ever, and we after them After a while, we had so run it down, that we could hear one voice calling "Murder!" and another voice, "Convicts!... it out of flint and steel, and have made a noise like the very pirate himself rattling his chains As soon as the great black velvet pall outside my little window was shot with gray, I got up and went down stairs; every board upon the way, and every crack in every board calling after me, "Stop thief!" and "Get up, Mrs Joe!" In the pantry, which was far more abundantly supplied than usual, owing to the... "you're a man that knows what's what." "D'ye think so?" said Mr Pumblechook, with his former laugh "Have another glass!" "With you Hob and nob," returned the sergeant "The top of mine to the foot of yours,—the foot of yours to the top of mine,—Ring once, ring twice,—the best tune on the Musical Glasses! Your health May you live a thousand years, and never be a worse judge of the right sort than you... of the convicts I could see none, I could hear none Mr Wopsle had greatly alarmed me more than once, by his blowing and hard breathing; but I knew the sounds by this time, and could dissociate them from the object of pursuit I got a dreadful start, when I thought I heard the file still going; but it was only a sheep-bell The sheep stopped in their eating and looked timidly at us; and the cattle, their... beat the shivers so far, I'll bet you." He was gobbling mincemeat, meatbone, bread, cheese, and pork pie, all at once: staring distrustfully while he did so at the mist all round us, and often stopping—even stopping his jaws—to listen Some real or fancied sound, some clink upon the river or breathing of beast upon the marsh, now gave him a start, and he said, suddenly,— "You're not a deceiving imp?... gentlemen Mr Wopsle's great- aunt, besides keeping this Educational Institution, kept in the same room—a little general shop She had no idea what stock she had, or what the price of anything in it was; but there was a little greasy memorandumbook kept in a drawer, which served as a Catalogue of Prices, and by this oracle Biddy arranged all the shop transaction Biddy was Mr Wopsle's great- aunt's granddaughter;... file of soldiers ringing down the but-ends of their loaded muskets on our door-step, caused the dinner-party to rise from table in confusion, and caused Mrs Joe re-entering the kitchen empty-handed, to stop short and stare, in her wondering lament of "Gracious goodness gracious me, what's gone— with the—pie!" The sergeant and I were in the kitchen when Mrs Joe stood staring; at which crisis I partially... at me This was very disagreeable to a guilty mind The gates and dikes and banks came bursting at me through the mist, as if they cried as plainly as could be, "A boy with Somebody's else's pork pie! Stop him!" The cattle came upon me with like suddenness, staring out of their eyes, and steaming out of their nostrils, "Halloa, young thief!" One black ox, with a white cravat on,—who even had to my awakened... sparks dropped and died, the pale afternoon outside almost seemed in my pitying young fancy to have turned pale on their account, poor wretches At last, Joe's job was done, and the ringing and roaring stopped As Joe got on his coat, he mustered courage to propose that some of us should go down with the soldiers and see what came of the hunt Mr Pumblechook and Mr Hubble declined, on the plea of a pipe