Eat, Pray, Love Book

sly, there is the acorn from which it all begins, the seed which holds all the promise and potential, which grows into the tree Everybody can see that But only a few can recognize that there is another force operating here as well—the future tree itself, which wants so badly to exist that it pulls the acorn into being, drawing the seedling forth with longing out of the void, guiding the evolution from nothingness to maturity In this respect, say the Zens, it is the oak tree that creates the very acorn from which it was born I think about the woman I have become lately, about the life that I am now living, and about how much I always wanted to be this person and live this life, liberated from the farce of pretending to be anyone other than myself I think of everything I endured before getting here and wonder if it was me—I mean, this happy and balanced me, who is now dozing on the deck of this small Indonesian fishing boat—who pulled the other, younger, more confused and more struggling me forward during all those hard years The younger me was the acorn full of potential, but it was the older me, the already-existent oak, who was saying the whole time: “Yes—grow! Change! Evolve! Come and meet me here, where I already exist in wholeness and maturity! I need you to grow into me!” And maybe it was this present and fully actualized me who was hovering four years ago over that young married sobbing girl on the bathroom floor, and maybe it was this me who whispered lovingly into that desperate girl’s ear, “Go back to bed, Liz ” Knowing already that everything would be OK, that everything would eventually bring us together here Right here, right to this moment Where I was always waiting in peace and contentment, always waiting for her to arrive and join me Then Felipe wakes up We’d both been dozing in and out of consciousness all afternoon, curled in each other’s arms on the deck of this Indonesian fisherman’s sailboat The ocean has been swaying us, the sun shining While I lie there with my head pillowed on his chest, Felipe tells me that he had an idea while he was sleeping He says, “You know—I obviously need to keep living in Bali because my business is here, and because it’s so close to Australia, where my kids live I also need to be in Brazil often, because that’s where the gemstones are and because I have family there And you obviously need to be in the United States, because that’s where your work is, and that’s where your family and friends are So I was thinking maybe we could try to build a life together that’s somehow divided between America, Australia, Brazil and Bali.” All I can is laugh, because, hey—why not? It just might be crazy enough to work A life like this might strike some people as absolutely loony, as sheer foolishness, but it resembles me so closely Of course this is how we should proceed It feels so familiar already And I quite like the poetry of his idea, too, I must say I mean that literally After this whole year spent exploring the individual and intrepid I’s, Felipe has just suggested to me a whole new theory of traveling: Australia, America, Bali, Brazil = A, A, B, B Like a classic poem, like a pair of rhyming couplets The little fishing boat anchors right off the shore of Gili Meno There are no docks here on this island You have to roll up your pants, jump off the boat and wade in through the surf on your own power There’s absolutely no way to this without getting soaking wet or even banged up on the coral, but it’s worth all the trouble because the beach here is so beautiful, so special So me and my lover, we take off our shoes, we pile our small bags of belongings on the tops of our heads and we prepare to leap over the edge of that boat together, into the sea You know, it’s a funny thing The only Romance language Felipe doesn’t happen to speak is Italian But I go ahead and say it to him anyway, just as we’re about to jump I say: “Attraversiamo.” Let’s cross over Eat, Pray, Love Final Recognition and Reassurance A few months after I’d left Indonesia, I returned to visit loved ones and to celebrate the Christmas and New Year’s holiday My flight landed in Bali only two hours after Southeast Asia was struck by a tsunami of staggering destruction Acquaintances all over the world contacted me immediately, concerned about the safety of my Indonesian friends People seemed particularly consumed with this worry: “Are Wayan and Tutti OK?” The answer is that the tsunami did not impact Bali in any way whatsoever (aside from emotionally, of course) and I found everybody safe and sound Felipe was waiting for me at the airport (the first of many times we would be meeting each other at various airports) Ketut Liyer was sitting on his porch, same as ever, making medicine and meditations Yudhi had recently taken work playing guitar in some fancy local resort and was doing well And Wayan’s family was living happily in their beautiful new house, far away from the dangerous coastline, sheltered high in the rice terraces of Ubud With all the gratitude I can summon (and on Wayan’s behalf), I would now like to thank everyone who contributed money to build that home: Sakshi Andreozzi, Savitri Axelrod, Linda and Renee Barrera, Lisa Boone, Susan Bowen, Gary Brenner, Monica Burke and Karen Kudej, Sandie Carpenter, David Cashion, Anne Connell (who also, along with Jana Eisenberg, is a master of last-minute rescues), Mike and Mimi de Gruy, Armenia de Oliveira, Rayya Elias and Gigi Madl, Susan Freddie, Devin Friedman, Dwight Garner and Cree LeFavour, John and Carole Gilbert, Mamie Healey, Annie Hubbard and the almost-unbelievable Harvey Schwartz, Bob Hughes, Susan Kittenplan, Michael and Jill Knight, Brian and Linda Knopp, Deborah Lopez, Deborah Luepnitz, Craig Marks and Rene Steinke, Adam McKay and Shira Piven, Jonny and Cat Miles, Sheryl Moller, John Morse and Ross Petersen, James and Catherine Murdock (with Nick and Mimi’s blessings), José Nunes, Anne Pagliarulo, Charley Patton, Laura Platter, Peter Richmond, Toby and Beverly Robinson, Nina Bernstein Simmons, Stefania Somare, Natalie Standiford, Stacey Steers, Darcey Steinke, The Thoreson Girls (Nancy, Laura and Miss Rebecca), Daphne Uviller, Richard Vogt, Peter and Jean Warrington, Kristen Weiner, Scott Westerfeld and Justine Larbalestier, Bill Yee and Karen Zimet Lastly, and on a different topic, I wish I could find a way to properly acknowledge my cherished Uncle Terry and my Aunt Deborah for all the help they gave me during this year of travel To call it mere “technical support” is to diminish the importance of their contribution Together they wove a net beneath my tightrope without which—quite simply—I would not have been able to write this book I don’t know how to repay them In the end, though, maybe we must all give up trying to pay back the people in this world who sustain our lives In the end, maybe it’s wiser to surrender before the miraculous scope of human generosity and to just keep saying thank you, forever and sincerely, for as long as we have voices ... I say: “Attraversiamo.” Let’s cross over Eat, Pray, Love Final Recognition and Reassurance A few months after I’d left Indonesia, I returned to visit loved ones and to celebrate the Christmas... but it’s worth all the trouble because the beach here is so beautiful, so special So me and my lover, we take off our shoes, we pile our small bags of belongings on the tops of our heads and... a net beneath my tightrope without which—quite simply—I would not have been able to write this book I don’t know how to repay them In the end, though, maybe we must all give up trying to pay